Children are highly intuitive. This is one of the hardest things for me right now about being a mom. I am feeling much more optimistic about Rowan’s future and the future of our family. However, there are still times where I feel so overwhelmed I can hardly keep it together.
Reading a book with Little Bird where she points at the baby on the page, and then points at my tummy and says “BABY!”
Seeing Rowan’s clothes in a box in our room.
I just get teary – and when I’m alone with Little Bird, me being upset translates to her being extremely unsure of her environment. She cries more, feels less comfortable being in a different room than me, wants me to hold her more often (which is not okay for me to do anymore).
I keep reminding myself that I have to stay calm for her. I don’t ever want to make a child deal with adult problems. This is something she will have to deal with when Rowan arrives and should not have to deal with it now.
I’m cutting myself some slack. We’ve been cuddling up watching movies together. We take our time getting things done right now and try not to be in a rush so that I don’t get stressed. If I do get upset, I tell her “Mommy is sad today, but it’s okay to be sad sometimes. Let’s go get a drink/build some blocks/sing a song to help us not be sad.” I’m putting less pressure on myself to be supermom in the next few days, and just letting myself be “mom”.